Reaching significant life markers can feel like a line being drawn in the sand.
Behind it may lie years of fruitful abundance, times of activity and usefulness.
In front is an unknown, untried, untested future ~ trusted to a known God.
My line in the sand came in my 30’s when I was working as a nurse.
I was struck down, laid low with M.E, and other chronic illness followed hot on its heels.
Time shuddered to a halt. A life divided into ‘now’ and ‘then’. I soon forgot what it felt like to feel well.
God used the time to good effect. As I began to mourn the loss of health and career, He made me lie down by His still waters to examine my soul.
Provided good Christian counselling to encourage me to unearth my painful past and bring me into a place of greater release and freedom.
After nearly 10 years of weekly counselling sessions, I was finally emotionally healed from most of the events that had shaped me as a growing child/adult and poisoned my mind and heart.
Though some lingering after-effects continue to impact my life.
They too require the Healer’s ongoing tender touch.
Now, I remain a sojourner. A heart still set on pilgrimage.
“Blessed are those whose strength is in you, who have set their hearts on pilgrimage” ~ Psalm 84:5
My soul is still seeking safety, sanctuary and strength on a daily basis as it leans heavy on the Lord.
For we never stay the same, even if our circumstances do.
We are all growing, evolving, maturing and learning day by day.
And God never stops teaching us about Himself:the wonders of His love, the marvel of His grace, the sweetness of His Presence.
I may have just passed another milestone on the way to heaven, but I will never get beyond my desperate need of God.
We are built to yearn for Him, to desire to know Him, to set our hearts on following after His will and ways.
Because that’s the only certainty we have in this uncertain world ~ our God is totally loving, totally trustworthy and totally faithful to His children.
God’s best won’t necessarily look good to us while we are experiencing it, and often not until we understand what He is doing and allowing, but it will heal and deliver us in His own perfect timing and way.
Marching on is the nature of souls
in search of becoming healed and whole
Our pilgrimage can span many long years
as we learn to walk bold and conquer fears
Stumbling through valleys deep with sand
we reach out for God’s proffered hand
When weak, worn out and weary we fall
we’re lifted up by the One who sees all
Blinded by tears we lose our way
God ensures we don’t go astray
Discouragement comes and hearts can fail
until we remember the Blood and nails
Our Saviour Lord trod this earthly soil
experienced its pain, suffering and toil
And when we follow hard after Him
He grants us strength when life looks grim